coffee conglamorate

Hi, My name is Megan, and I'm a Starbucks addict.
Not sure how it happened...ok I am I have this internship 3 days a week and don't have to be in till 11 but i hitch a ride with dad at 8 so im in syracuse by 830 or so, with nothing to do but sit and read. so I go to starbucks and blow 5 bucks every monday wednesday and friday and read for two hours (i usually end up dozing off somewhere in there too). now here is the thing, across the street from starbucks is this little home town coffee shop, Freedom of Espresso, there are a couple of them in Syracuse, and it has these brilliant paintings on the walls, but honestly, I've only gone in once, with emily, and it was hot and sticky and i had no desire for coffee in a hot and sticky room about the size of my living room. and so i realized in that moment, for all my hip-trendy desires, i'm leaning to the trendy side. i like starbucks like everyone else... oh well. "do I contradict myself? very well then i contradict myself. i am large, i contain multitudes. " so i sit and read my english major books in my air conditioned starbucks and get lattes and "perfect" oatmeal.- but not hot tea bc apparently the coffee conglamorate doesnt know you don't break the tea bags and get leaves all over every time-hmmph. but it's not so bad, mostly business ppl, but there are business ppl across the street too. and the music is good, indie or jazz, and i can sit on a comfortable couch in stead of a wobbly chair and read and be ignored rather than watched by the only other person in the shop, the guy behind the counter that just made my coffee.
so i like the corporation. so what. i'm going to end up working for the man anyways, might as well jump in with both feet...

Holes in my ears

Today I bought myself 3 new pairs of earings and Beloved. I also got House of Seven Gables out of the library and will finish the Tempest tonight (?). I have to go to work in half an hour which is lame, but I feel like I accomplished a lot today, mowed the lawn, had lunch with kate, played with sidewalk paint chalk. (my new favorite kid thing to do) and I am going to work. the three new pairs of earings were 60$ total, which is a lot. but it brings my earing total up to 8, so I don't feel so bad about it. I was getting a little tired of surgical steel hoops and plain gold studs, so I splurged.
Overall, today was a very good day.

The Tempest is my favorite Shakespeare play, although Othello and Richard III are close second and third. There's just something about the language and the plot that I have always loved. I remember reading it for fun in high school and reciting from it, and my teacher being so impressed bc he didn't even read it till college. what can i say? I'm kind of a big deal...anyways re-reading it now has just re-enforced why I love it. Especially after having read and studied more shakespeare than midsummer, caesar and R&J. It has a lot of depth and the language really is some of his best. I look forward to house of seven gables (Hawthorne yay!) but I'm relishing what I have left of shakespeare. When I finish tempest and abolition of man, I'll have finished 5/12 of my books for the semester. maybe i'll even get to reading some hemingway or kerouac for fun at the end of the summer...but I doubt it. At least I'm really enjoying what I'm reading. :)

Need a moment?

This weekend, I went to women of faith in Rochester, I was the youngest one there out of our group for the weekend, which wasn't easy. And I got almost no downtime to relax and process. But honestly, those are my only complaints, and their not that important. While I really wish I had more time to sleep or just enjoy the extremely comfortable bed in our hotel room, I was pretty energenic the whole weekend, until about 12 today when I crashed. God is so good. The speakers were encouraging, and mom and I got to spend time alone together, which we've never done before. (and we didn't kill each other!)
Something I really struggle with is being single. I think that there must be something wrong with me, that this is some trial I'm going through. Well throughout the past year God has been trying to convict me that this is a season in my life I have to go to, and that I have opportunities to serve him as a single woman, that I will never have again. This weekend, Lisa Harper got up and spoke. She's 45 and single and would love to be married if God decides to put the right man in her life, but as she puts it "360 days of the year I'm happy to be single" and you know? I am too, most days I don't think about it or throw myself a pity-party, but then there are those times when I have to bury a dead goat in the middle of the night and my pants are falling down and i think, "what the heck God?" (note: i dont have a dead goat...harper does) Needless to say I bough both her books...why? not because I thought there would be some miracle answer as to how to get a man (clearly hasnt worked for her if there is) but because I want to learn how I can use this "trial" as a ministry. If I'm ever 45 and single (Please, God, don't...) I want to be Lisa Harper. up there on stage telling women how God will use us even when we're a perfect mess, or we don't have it all together or we are single and don't have kids and so on. Because, I want to be a firefly (like patsy clairmont) and no one likes a firefly that whines and mowps about, bc they don't give off a very bright or enticing light. I have joy in the Lord and I want to shine and show that joy to the world despite my circumstances...which I realized this weekend, are pretty freaking blessed. so, do I LOVE being single? not yet, will I ever? maybe, can God use me if I let him? Heck yes! and I'm pretty excited to be used because I know my worth in my father's eyes and I want to let other women know they are princesses despite what the world thinks.

Skinny Love

Hurrah!

End of my second week as an intern! and I absolutely love it. I can't say much since all my work is top secret (yeah, I'm kinda like a spy) but it's a lot of fun! Tomorrow I head to Rochester with mom for the Women of Faith conference. I am pretty excited as mom and I have never actually gotten away just the two of us (and a little nervous too). I can't wait to see what God has to show me and to be able to worship and fellowship with my mom. I finished The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym yesterday and I have to say, I feel a little cheated with the ending...but that's all I will say for now because I don't want to ruin it for people who haven't read it. Started the Handmaid's Tale. Not sure what to expect from it, it's unnerving, to say the least, but very thought provoking. Also I bought Bon Iver's For Emma, Forever ago on iTunes today. I am in love with it. I also bought Fleet Foxes' EP and their debut album...I've been in love with them for a longer time though. I just really enjoy the vocals and the mix. there's something about it. I've been listening to all the tracks off all three albums (1.7hrs of music according to itunes) non-stop since i bought them at 5. I'm not even close to sick of it. but I should probably get some sleep since I have errands to run in the morning before I leave with mom around noon.

Only love is all maroon

Lapping lakes like leary loons

beer goggles

So Today the kid I was best friends with in high school turned twenty-one. and so i went out and had a beer with him. the thing that bugged me was that everyone thought I should have more than one, and the conversation seemed to center around other times they'd been drunk, or drinking, or sex or whatnot. It just made me wonder, do we talk about anything meaningful anymore? and do we even care if we don't? or are we just emptying our already vapid minds? and filling them with nonsense... to me it's possible to enjoy oneself with friends with one beer, in most cases, no beer, and your conversation doesn't take its inspiration from the frothy glass you're holding or the stupid things you've done under its influence. i thought things would change after high school but they stay the same...or get worse...

i think i needed to go out to see i didn' need or want that...