If I'm going to really pursue my dream of being a writer, copywriter or novelist, I need to really hone my skillz. Unfortunately, I, like most writers I know, am lazy. And I enjoy being lazy. oh sure when I have a deadline to pursue I get it done, and when I'm getting paid I can do the work, and do it pretty well. It's when it's just for me, or even potentially for something else that I always seem to find time to do something else. I can't seem to sit down and write something good start to finish, I mean I start with some great ideas that just fall flat as I get to the end. I want to be able to stick with it.
I have another problem. when I do write I don't like to show it to other people. I'm afraid of rejection, that they won't think I'm as good as I think I am, that I will pale in comparison to other writers, that the critics (who know nothing) will mock me, and well I'm not ready for any of that. I'm a chicken. how the great authors did it I don't know. granted they were great, but did they know they were great or did they second guess their talent just like me. Do I have the potential to be great or just mediocre?
"The presence alone of Faulkner in our midst makes a great difference in what the writer can and cannot permit himself to do. Nobody wants his mule and wagon stalled on the same track the Dixie Limited is roaring down." – Flannery O’Connor, The Grotesque in Southern Fiction
